Update

Well it finally happened. I knew it was going to happen eventually. My wife left me. Ironically she cornered me when I got home from work and said she was lonely and couldn't live like she was. Keep in mind she was the one always out until the wee hours of the morning. She then said she was missing something and I asked her what. She replied condescendingly that I knew what. Now, assuming she meant sex I recall two years ago that she said she didn't need a physical relationship. What changed with her to make her decide she now wants sex? If she wanted to explore and experiment I would have been willing to discuss it with her. She made it painfully clear that she wants a new life without me. That part hurts. There is that sinking feeling I wasn't good enough to keep her happy. Or, that my satisfaction with simple pleasures and keeping things simple wasn't exciting enough for her. Or perhaps that she is going through a midlife crises and wants to be a party girl with her friends who are ten years younger and I no longer fit in the picture. All sorts of thoughts are running through my mind. People are telling me she is acting like she is seeing someone else which I think so too. However if I'm going to be totally honest I was falling out of love with her too. In fact I was growing to resent her for making me feel like I don't matter. Now I did cry when she left however there is no going back. I never asked her to reconsider and if she were to call me and ask if we can try to work it out I will tell her no. Really at this point all I care about are where am I going to live and to not be alone. I've been lonely the last year (while still married) and am even lonelier now. So here is the start of another chapter in my life.