What Am I Doing?

I know I said I wouldn't talk to her because I got the sense there is too much drama. Yet something inside me keeps pushing the envelope. I guess it's the excitement of the possibility of something happening in the future. The other night she asked me in yahoo IM to tell her something to get her off. I did. So now I have to think how far this is going to go. My id and superego (the literal angel and devil on my shoulder) have been constantly fighting. I want some time for myself, to do what I want to do. Afterwards I can come back to my usually dull routine.